For my prom date who loves Spongebob

I'm going to buy a pizza, cover up the box with "Krusty Krab Pizza"
have her Spongebob plush with a paper that says "Prom?"
I'll surprise her, cover her eyes, then play the "Krusty Krab Pizza" song/video,
and when she says yes, I'll play "Sweet Victory" by Squidward's band! :D

What is life?

Something I’ve been pondering for almost four years now.

Birth and death and whatever experiences come in between?

Or like, the people you come across. Those whose effects mattered and those who didn’t.

Who chooses what happens to us?

And what if the choices we think we’re making aren’t actually our choices?

What is this?

This life of ours.

Is it just to make the best out of the situation you’re handed?

I mean.

I guess I’m just duh-reflect-epiphany-ing about my current life.

But.

Oy.

Am I supposed to be going through this right now?

How does it end up later on?

I have an idea..

Movie night yeah

I don't know.
The fact that I dreamt that situation and that it happened I feel is kind of a big deal.
He gave me such a fright when he grabbed my neck. I thought he was going to try to kiss me.
I almost died. My heart almost jumped out of my chest.
He's really growing on me.
I'm not in like yet.
But goodness.
I know that I'm more okay with being around him and touchy stuff, but I'm still scared and junk.
Wow.
I just.
It's not the same guy who held me three years ago.
It's someone else.
Someone I actually met earlier.
I wonder what we are in each other's lives?
Something I've learned about myself is that I'm afraid of making another mistake.
I don't want to be in a relationship with anyone other than my spouse.
I feel terrible that I fell in love with someone who wasn't for me.
It's an icky feel.
I don't want to do that.
I didn't think I was going to be like that.
And I'm scared.
I'm just afraid to give my heart away temporarily again.
Throws of young love.
It was nice having someone's arm around me in bed again though.
I just.
I'm scared. So very scared.

Nu uh

I think three boys fell in love with me last year?
Two of them still have feels for me and one left me.
#wat
#whatislife
#nofreakingwaydude
I don't know how to feel about this.

(I'm kind of exaggerating, but seriously, three boys last year.)
Damn.

Mi familia cercana?

One of my uncles had a stroke this morning.
He's in the hospital down the street right now and they've already done some work on him, but gosh.
I gasped when my aunt told me.
I prayed for my mom.
She called my sisters and my other aunt.
Goodness.

This makes me feel weird.
Like, my family isn't very close but they've gone through a lot together.
Or maybe my family is close and my mom is the distant one.
I don't know.
I have a lot of feelings about this right now.

February 19, 2012

"I like your heartbeat, Melissa. The other day I was writing something and I felt a pulse, I started freaking out cause I thought someone else was in the room. I felt a presence, then I realized, 'it's Melissa.' and I missed you."

I just got off my period and I swear, my face is glowing.